Wednesday, November 2, 2005
08:01 a.m.
Estuve confrontando que esto de querer amor tiene que ver con el innegable hecho de que no recibí amor en aquella edad, y que esta busqueda de afecto es el seguimiento dado a aquella ausencia. No sé que tan mal esté esto, ni hasta donde debo resolverlo. La indiferencia que siento por ellos creo que está totalmente relacionado con esto; no sé si esto es lo que afecta mis relaciones con las mujeres con quienes he salido...
Esta mañana me ha asaltado la idea de que la persona de quien estoy ----------- no siente ni más remotamente lo mismo: solo tengo su aprecio. Y no se le puede culpar. No es el mismo valor que se le da a lo que uno aprecia que a lo que uno le apasiona ://end_of_broadcast...
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midnight sept 25 2005
1.48pm
Me siento terriblemente mal. No disfrute la cena por esperarla, no disfrute el pastel porque perdi el apetito... me arruiné todo yo. Aqui el problema que tengo va más alla del amor. No se que sea pero tengo muchas ganas de llorar... pero no puedo...
las lagrimas no quieren salirme... ://end_of_broadcast...
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sept 15 2005 thursday
04:39 p.m.
We have been thinking of the person i look at in my thoughts. I wish to know why does she say i acted insistent, for i don't understand it and i also don't have a chance too many to even contact her. No one can read this, for it is located in a blind point of the net, that only packet-sniffers, wizards and such can see with no problem at all [ i don't even think their time is worth reading these rants ]
I you could read me, i would like you to know i fell in for you my friend, but i want to know you, more than anything. I could love you just like that, for no reason, unconditionally, but such thing would be unfair for my cardiac/emotional valve, and it would be unfair to you, also. I can only wish you the best, for i cannot comunicate with you.
**With love_encript+#!6934128[enclosed loop]
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Saturday, September 10, 2005
07:50 a.m.
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23 august 2005
01:09 a.m.
I want to see you... i need you LOVE... ://end_of_broadcast...